Its my life!

So, lately I've had a lot on my mind. I haven't felt the best about myself or my mothering. However, I know that with help from the Lord, I will have abilities beyond my own. It is a promise in my patriarchal blessing. I know that as life continues I will learn from my mistakes and from my children. I hope that I will be able to teach them what they need to know.

As I was thinking about some of the things that I NEED to teach our children, it became very real to me that my life will NEVER be the same. What occupies my mind and thoughts has completely changed, and I sincerely hope that it will never have the chance to become like it used to, either.

I realized that I have alot of responsibilities now. I need to do what I can to better my knowledge (spiritual and otherwise) in order to teach my children what they need or want to know.

As I think on how my life has changed I tend to dwell on what I never did. It feels as though it haunts me.

There were a lot of things that I wanted to do and other things that I loved doing but for some reason or another, I stopped...Like camping, hiking, canoeing, skiing, sewing, singing, my violin, swimming, biking, cross-stitching, soccer, softball, poetry, piano...

I would love to say that I am a sporty girl...I really would. However, truth be told, I'm not. I would like to be, but I'm not. I am quite confident in saying that the reason I'm not is because of my physical limitations.

Oh the physical limitations...what a joke! WHO SETS THOSE????? HA! Who sets ANY limitations on me????

I DO.

All of that stuff I never did or stopped doing...its because of myself. I chose to stop. And better yet...who says I can't do that now that I have a family? NO ONE! so I've decided...I'm gonna do it! I'm gonna do all that I can. Time to stop living in the past about what I never did...or stopped doing...its time to take control of my life!

WHILE THINKING OF THIS...A SONG COMES TO MIND...

This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive

'Cause it's my life!

I started today. I'm getting in shape! Angela and I walked Jim to work. I've decided that I need to pretend that I don't have a car, while weather permits anyways. That way I walk every where! And walk my way back to size 12!! or smaller :-) I didn't complain even once! haha! GO ME!!!

I'll try to keep ya updated!